memorize the future: October 2010

20101030

我很累但教我怎睡

2009, Lorne, Victoria

回家後發現眼睛很紅

看到很多微絲血管

眼睛比我之前上班還要累　為什麼?

現在只是較鬧鐘睡覺, 不用較鬧鐘起床

但還是睡得很不自在

你有試過每天起床便要叫自己深呼吸, 要放鬆自己嗎

睡覺不就是要令自己放鬆休息嗎

已經幾個月了, 每天皺著眉握著拳頭去入睡

起床後的感覺比入睡前更愁

為何還未看開

可能因為未看開, 看得眼睛也紅了

還要等多久, 我才會好像以前可以倒頭大睡

20101028

現在最喜歡的, 洗澡後一杯冰茶, 洗滌心靈

想一想今天得到了什麼, 學到了什麼　

感謝每天傳過我正能量的人

20101026

I saw us walking on the beach, we were walking out to the shore. The weather was freezing but we were warm. When we looked back, we saw a full big moon just right ahead us. We screamed like kids as we had never seen the moon as this close to us, never. You pulled my hand and started running, tried to chase the moon before it disappeared in our vision. Though we never reach, we panted in the cold air, we were so happy.

The sweetest dream I have ever had in reality.

It was just a dream, right

20101025

Learn to love yourself before you love others

2010, Canberra, Floriade Festival

"If you aren't good at loving yourself, you will have a difficult time loving anyone, since you'll resent the time and energy you give another person that you aren't even giving to yourself." - Barbara de Angelis

投入黑夜

最近重新愛上深夜, 一來真的睡得很差

二來我感覺到自己, 這對我來說很重要

四五點左右, 關起大燈

床頭燈, 音樂, 一本書或雜誌, 直到我的眼皮撐不起

好像回到中學的我

20101022

啟示與試探

2008, Hong Kong

我相信衪每分每秒都在看守我們　

但愚蠢的我真的很想知道究竟哪些是給我的啟示

或是魔鬼的試探

夢想在最低潮便消失得無影無蹤

我深信的

2009, Phillip Island

撐過去遠地會綠油油
寂寞的不傷心要有的總會有
撐過去在大海中心最怕是回首
個個也渴望結伴同遊
到處走是否必須要手牽某某
挪亞說過會讓我單身搭上方舟

20101020

頭破血流

2010, Canberra

頭破血流不是貼一塊膠布便好

傷痕就是永遠都在

提醒你這次的傷是多麼痛

"在你跌入人生谷底的時候，你身旁所有人都告訴你，要堅強，而且要快樂，堅強是絕對需要的，但是快樂？在這種情形下，恐怕是太為難你了，畢竟，誰能在跌得頭跛血流的時候還覺得高興？但是至少可以做到平靜。平靜地看待這件事，平靜地把其他該處理的事處理得好。平靜，沒有快樂，也沒有不快樂。"

這是一個朋友在這晚跟我說的話

謝謝你

還有很多很多精句　

看著那些文字就像赤裸裸的對著另一個自己

忘記了一個人是怎樣生活

突然多出來的愛本應就是屬於自己

只有自己才會是自己終生的伴侶

testing

Test posting photos from iPhone.

20101017

空虛

2010, Hong Kong

空虛大概是一種病
是一種快樂後的後遺症

可以是與朋友相聚一天快樂後當你一個人坐尾班火車那種失落感

可以是半夜從夢中醒過來, 夢到你最想見的人, 張開眼睛後看到那種漆黑

可以是有一天睡醒, 突然清醒過來, 發現自己抽離了身邊所有平常事物, 你擁有過的關係, 可恨的那種清醒

那種空虛, 這一秒突然很具體地刻劃在我身上

雖然這一刻很累, 但還是很想把這種感覺記下來

因為, 同時間, 是因為這種空虛

令我更加珍惜快樂的時候　

原來寂寞是會習慣的

20101016

joy of birthday

很快樂今年回來後可以參加妳們每個人的生日

我想大家意不在生日, 是因為每次都可以見到大家

大伙兒又可以嘈嘈嘈, 唱走音的生日歌

我會繼續為你們拍下片段拍下照片

十年廿年後我們一起再看我們的每個生日, 曾經這樣年輕快樂過

每年都一起過好嗎

20101015

Coffee

2006 Melbourne

I was told not to drink any coffee when I was small. Since my mum told me it would have side effect from caffeine, like how your hands would shake, heartbeat etc..cause she has it every time after she has caffeine.

However, when I grow elder, I get in love with coffee. I had at least one cup a day when I was in AUS. If I feel I have too much, I would have milk tea instead.

It is too easy to get coffee everywhere in aus, and its cheap compare to others drink.

I like its bitter taste also the sweet comes after the bitter.

and how the bitter lasts in your teeth....wowwww

Til now, i keep make myself a coffee in the morning if i have time.

Its a gift to myself every morning. It totally makes my day.